Well, this is me breaking down...

Feeling those old

Urges coming back. What is wrong with me? Why can’t I just be fucking normal? What is it about me that pushes everyone away…

I’ve never wanted to fucking punch something or do something destructive more than ibdo right now. You’re such a diiiccccckkkkkk!!!!!!

Whenever I say I don’t feel like I’m beautiful, it’s not because of how I look. It’s how I feel I appear to others; and clearly I’m nothing special… I push people away with my personality and my looks aren’t good enough to compensate

I really don’t post to this blog enough…